Tuesday, October 27, 2009 10/27/2009 10:47:00 PM
it was so hard. and filled with pain.
getting this week over would be best to continue with my denial.
(nothing to do with results at all if you were trying to guess anything)
don't even say bond like a compound, it's not even a mixture now.
but i guess, you've hurt me like how you said i did the last time.
& when i see that, i have no idea why i feel like i'm at the other end of the world. ESCAPE is what i always do and have been doing.
i'm never brave enough to face up to anything of this sort, and i feel pathetic even for myself. you might not realise it, or i might have been sensitive.
afterall, i'm a 'people' person, and that's why (whatever)-ships kills me in the end, affecting is crap, sensitivity is shit.
and when the walls fall...
i can't help it at all.
(original plan: take a break tomorrow and immerse myself in lanzhenglong totally but i guess it's impossible anymore, since we're so pressed for time already)
/and i actually thought i should have memory loss or something so your expressions won't affect a shit out of me everytime, cause i'm not gonna wish that you'll disappear. IWANNAGOAWAY.
Sunday, October 25, 2009 10/25/2009 07:45:00 PM
HAHAHAH omg CIRCUS is freaking funny :DDDDD
(but what they did to bbt the last time was unforgiveable LOL)
but seriously, their shows are so good to pass time with!
AND i don't get why 小马's 人气's the worst -.-
i like 小马 eh! ._.
(sigh... kid's quite good too haha xD)
ANDDD YANYALUN ACTUALLY FLAGGED A GIANT TOURIST BUS RIGHT ON THE ROAD TO BOARD WITHOUT GIVING ANY MONEY OR BOOKING OR WHATSOEVER.. hahaha damn 夸张 x)
(and shhhh.. he actually tried to make friends with 小马's gf! LOL what the shitttt :D damn interesting, that episode whoo~)
Friday, October 23, 2009 10/23/2009 01:04:00 PM
my marking days are screwed.
i'm not doing anything.
i feel myself slowly slipping away.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009 10/20/2009 06:41:00 PM
you make my feelings contradict each other.
IT'S ENDINGGGG TOMORROWWWWWWWWW~
SMELL THE FREEDOMZ.
(marking days packed already whoo~ singing all day long almost)
Sunday, October 18, 2009 10/18/2009 10:47:00 AM
ALMOSTTTTT THEREEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
(but some things will no longer be the same after everything)
i freaking need all my brain cells to work now.
it's all my imagination..............
that won't occur (at all)
feeling so weird but whatever.
mugging first-
(vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv tired! i wanna slack gah.)
/arghhhh no mood to carry on with the damn studying~
screw up three papers and i die, so self-control please come back, stop lurking around the computer or the tv in search of something to slack around. PLUS i've gone through the worst one so... 3 more days is nothing. (comeon)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009 10/14/2009 04:07:00 PM
3 moreeeeeee!!!! (or five gah whatever i like smaller numbers haha)
i'm so gonna sleep my whole day off tomorrow (after bio that is -.-)
seems torturous till now, but hey, when was bio ever not torturous gahhhhh hated it when there's tests *slams the table*
my life is so pathetic compared to...
lutingwei's (sigh)
we should be 尽情挥洒ing 热血与青春 for now. (my mum calls this broken english plus chinese woots xD) damn but whatever at least it's less than 10 days now.
still can't get over lutingwei~~~~
another phase for me i guess other than the million ones i had over 15 years x) (lots of people have really damn good genes, i wonder if i do...)
Monday, October 12, 2009 10/12/2009 10:00:00 AM
i'm here to blog about my DONGBANG dreammmmm!!! :D
okay it occurred last monday uh night!
so apparently i was on the bus with kayyun (yeah omg like uh.. chao long never see her kind of thing) then after that we heard some people singing dongbang song (chao drama hahahah) and we peeped over, and saw OOOOOO: xiah, micky, jaejoong and yunho (okay sorry i didn't dream of changmin seriously, though it felt like he existed but the "view" didn't catch him at all haha)
then i don't know what apparently happened but we didn't alight at our stop (we stay at the same place so yeah) and we followed them OOOO:
after that they knew, and they were like quite friendly and stuff (AND I EVEN REMEMBERED THEY WERE SPEAKING TO US IN ENGLISH weird ._.)
okay so.. we went to their so-called look-like-basement-carpark studio, then sat down they discussed stuff which i can't rmb anymore. so suddenly micky asked me "do you like us alot?" then i nodded, kayyun too! and i said "i like xiah the most!" (HAHAHAHA OMGGGGGGG!!) then xiah gave his typical hands on the chin, cute smile woots (at this part i swear i was damn happy in the dream and in reality lol!)
urmmmm.. we asked for autograph!!!!! and they were showing some weird production they did i guess (really weird stuff) then kayyun asked if can take photo (OOO:) and micky said "you can take photos with us tomorrow when we're having our autograph session...." at this point, i was like thinking why micky suddenly turned mean tsktsktsktsktsk! gah whatever haha. OHOHOHOHOHOHOH reminded me, in the dream, micky wasn't having the weird broccoli hairstyle, he was having the messy hair look (WHICH I LIKE LOL *WINKS* AT PINKY)
then after that i think i woke up, feeling extremely exhilarated!!!!!!
after 1s, i realised it was fake, cause for a moment, i thought i really got their autograph (tsk) and it suddenly dawned upon me that it's impossible they'll come to s'pore for the moment SIGHHHHHHSSSSSS. after that went to school, suffered from extreme withdrawal symptoms plus high-ness as well hahahha. (AT LEAST THE DREAM FELT REAL K! enough liao haha)
hehe after that told xc and tct in school also, and xc was making me promise that i'll dream about her as well when there's dongbang in my dream lol :D
ahhhhhh~ epic (:
AND MY MUM WAS GOING A LITTLE CRAZY YESTERDAY CAUSE MY BRO WENT TO PLUCK A WHITE HAIR OUT OF MY HEAD -.- (apparently i never used to have, so she was saying i wasn't supposed to have... ._.) eh stress what lol! (look @ melianggg~)
LUTINGWEI HAO SHUAI O~~~~~
Thursday, October 01, 2009 10/01/2009 04:07:00 PM
I TOOK A HUGE GAMBLE YESTERDAY.
I'M TAKING A MEGA GAMBLE TODAY, RIGHT NOW FOR TOMORROW.
(if i die tomorrow, i die tomorrow -.-)
like what i wrote today:
escapism won't work, face it face it face it.
then can the fears and what not disappear.
POSITIVEMINDSETPOSITIVEMINDSETPOSIIVEMINDSET CONQUERS ALL!
(including discrimination of down's syndrome kids hah :X)
(i'm stressed till i'm not even eating dinner, great time to go on diet and hear more of "hey, you look like you've grown slimmer O:", but i guess the previous one by gys has something to do with me being sick haha xD)
/
aftermyexams. AHHHH freaking nervous.
//I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD IT'S A THIN LINE BETWEEN SURVIVAL AND DEATH.
AND I HOPE I SURVIVE~ :D
and to make this post sound chirpy!
"The production of too many useful things results in too many useless people." -Karl Marx.
MY VERSION:
"The production of too many cute guys results in too many jiayuin people." -ME!
(which is true! i created my own breed of people hah!)