3/30/2008 08:09:00 PM
watched koizora again with simping and gohying.
haiyo they arh..
starting already cry like mad like that -.-
but i cried like crazy at the end ):
hahaha. but it's nice.
AND HIRO SAKURAI IS HOTHOTHOT!
haha shuai i mean. ok haruma miuraaaaa <3
erm so ya..
time to chiong homework and stuff..
and apparently i have a lot to blog about but..
somehow i got nothing to say now.
things are really going WELL for me these few days.
yeah sense the sarcasm?
my mp4's dead.
my life's screwed.
my tears are dying.
i am dead.
:/
it's like the seventh time in four days?
that's all i can remember.
(go figure yourself.)
i don't care if anyone sees this anot.
but i wanna say.
i hate you chongwe.
yes.
to the core till i wanna stab you in the abdomen.
>< k i won't do that but it's to express the extremity of my hatred.
yesh!
you suck alot.
(: thanks for listening to me rant.
and thanks for those people who listen to me scream alot alot.
and emo alot alot.
uh, esp the one i smsed today.
sorry ah =x
i sounded very very pissed sorry.
and i like say stuff till very erm..
over. yeah :D
KK. gonna go chiong le (:
there's NAPFA on tues.
suck.
Saturday, March 29, 2008 3/29/2008 10:52:00 AM
oh ya yesterday's training was -.-
seriously.
as in we fell in, then march us out.
then gonna march in.
march in le, sediya, kekanan lurus.
then the guy asked another guy to check of GOH ready anot.
then like start drizzling like mad..
ME AND KATHERINE WERE ENJOYING hahah xD
ok then went back to the original place..
then heard the guy say "MARCHHHH IN!"
then everyone's like HUH? O_O
ok nvm march march in.
same old thing.
start raining damn heavily after kekanan lurus only -.-
then everybody chiong to the drill shed.
haha. but it's damn fun lar.
-.-
went for break earlyyy.
after break, wasn't told to go back.
so everyone stayed inside the mess, and like slacked and talked.
till they dismissed us O_O
SO WE PRACTICALLY DID NOTHING! -_-
and we found our bags damn wet.
luckily i didn't bring any books xD
otherwise they'll be wet like mad.
ok.. so it's like my bag smells now.
apparently the rain is smelly hahaha.
oh and the CI sir talking us today right..
is different one.
then he called us the YANYANG GIRLS.
wahah then the st margs people like "sir, it's nanyang girls."
then he's like "*looks at the paper. NANYANG GIRLS ah whatever la."
k we didn't see cause we were changing to half u.
hahaha.
FAZEENA!
don't be too sad k?
it's gonna be over..
but they still suck for being damned racists.
(: ok.. yep just don't really think much about wad they said.
xD
ok she won't read this but yeah.
she scared me yesterday! :/
hm.. she told her mum eh.
then like her mum wanna write letter to the _ teacher in charge eh =x
but she say she can stop that.
but why can't the _ stop too?
even after she said sorry. and it meant seriously.
and they thought we would not mind whatever they said after that.
NO WAYS MAN.
can you imagine if i did?
ah ok i dunno wad i'm talking about.
he may just get his life ruined.
and that's what i hope.
but not want, cause i still am HUMAN.
not like some darn f idiot.
Friday, March 28, 2008 3/28/2008 11:37:00 PM
hey..
ok i'm feeling super miserable now.
=x ok i'm hurting or whatever you call that.
as in like..
WHY DO I EVEN NEED TO CARE ABOUT WHAT'S THE PERSON'S MOOD THAT DAY TO SCOLD HIM OR EVEN JUST ASK HIM WHY HE DID THAT?
ok more of the latter one..
as in like isn't this too much?
LIKE DID HE THINK OF WHAT MY MOOD WAS BEFORE DOING WAD HE DID?
DID HE EVEN THINK ABOUT THE PEOPLE IMPLICATED INSIDE?
all he thought was about the 'entertainment' value for himself.
and he thought it to be a joke and very fun.
he doesn't even tink it's wrong.
ok but in the end i still yeah..
accepted that he is in a foul mood..
and decided not to care.
so i'm nice.
and i decided not to try and ka chiao him anymore.
so ya he's safe.
i'm not gonna even question why and stuff like that.
but i tell you i don't ke lian him.
after serious thinking.
CAUSE DID HE EVEN THINK THAT I WAS VERY KE LIAN AT THAT POINT IN TIME?
AND STOP EVERYTHING?
THE ANSWER IS NO.
so SORRY but i dun tink you deserve my pity.
so IF YOU ARE READING THIS.
you better stop everything you are doing.
NO MATTER WHAT.
YOU OWE ME AN APOLOGY
AND A CLARIFICATION.
>(
Thursday, March 27, 2008 3/27/2008 08:17:00 PM
changed blog song!
haha listen listen!
by landy wen lan!
:D
3/27/2008 07:42:00 PM
kop from angie's blog..
Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. [wahah yays! (:]
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. [-.- uh, never knew this scam #1]
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to have fun, be friendly and sweet. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. [hahaha omg -.- never knew this. scam #2]
Your views on education:You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job. [erm.. lol? hm.. how unusual can it be? xD]
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. [hm.. haha never knew this. but yeah maybe. ok be brave! (:]
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. [woahh.. ok quite true. i can be happy and emo right after that -.- NOT OFTEN!]
so there's practically 2 scams haha.
but i tink my second half about same as angie :]
hahaha k.
dunno why i suddenly feel like talking to you eh.
-.- haha so random.
3 years since we really talked?
hm.. haha maybe it's time to start talking!!
okok.
lalas results till now quite ok :D
but yea still quite lousy blehhhhh. ><
argh i haven't eat dinner -.-
so hungry eh O_O
ok. i shall go erm read my chi novel!
<3
Wednesday, March 26, 2008 3/26/2008 08:11:00 PM
omg isn't this cool?
oh mans i wantt haha so suit my check-list!
but it's 7-string -.- how play? hahaha.
CAN CONSIDER HAHAHA.
ok this is the best among the rest i tink.
but a bit too hmm... -.-
this is like bad man or something hahaha.
damn cool too but too black le.
*NEXT!
quite normal. but i like the colour contrast!!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
too bad the stripes are like orange?
haiz if it's yellow,
IT'S GONNA BE MINE hahaha -.-
wait till i have the money mannss..
ok.. that's a great start for a post eh?
OH OH!
omgomg finishing jay chou tee todayyyyyeeeee!
yays
and can send for printing this wkend i guess.
AND WAHLAHHH!!
i'm gonna wear it everywhere hahaha.
-.-
not in front of my relatives, family and stuff.
they're gonna be like "uh? who's that?"
wth. hahaha
so yeahs i'm gonna wear it when i feel like it..
and erm..
show off a little hahaha.
sam is getting it too!
designing session starts at 10pm!
wahah omgomg so excited ですね.
Jay が大好きです！
wahah my jap isn't lost yet lol -.-
hm..
got quite a number of things to do.
which requiring intense searching to be done -.-
hahaha.
k so yeah
looking forward to going crazy with the two siao people behind me tmr!
hahah today was yea funfunfun!
i guess we were quite distracting heh.
too high le with angie drawing at least 6 *ahems on her notebks..
and admitting that he's getting more and more shuai -.-
i tink the other guy most shuai lor.
hahah i like -.- {not in that context dun think wrong!}
so my type ok nvm.
k nvm.
i wonder who is he, and he looks damn familiar heh.
ok whatever.
:D
終わります！
Tuesday, March 25, 2008 3/25/2008 10:33:00 PM
SPECIAL THANKS TO THOSE SQMS..
MELIA'S GROUP DE I GUESS.
FOR YOUR RANDOM 'JIAYOU' WHILE I WAS SPECIALISING TENT PEGGING!
<3
BEING ABLE TO HEAR YOUR LAUGHTERS MADE ME WANT TO LAUGH WITH YOU ALL TOO WHILE I PEGGED -.-
ok wait did that affect my timing? oh goose.
BUT HAHA YEAH THANKS A LOT!
actually i rmb sqms saying jiayou or sth while i was pitching dunno tent or flag.
i tink flag ba.
though i didn't see who was it.
cause i was busy re-pegging the qi3 pegs!
SORRY! BUT YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE SO YEAHS!
HEART YOU ALL MANS! ;D
3/25/2008 10:00:00 PM
rahhhh. D:
haha dunno why just felt like doing that.
-.-
lala not gonna blog about wad happened today cause..
i also dunno.
feeling super random. (:
maybeeee.. ;D
OHOH!
i heart my new sitting arrangement alot alot!
though i will miss my chionging-math cum gossiping cum dozing-in-class {she more la} cum philosophical cum may-not-be-talking-sense ex-tablemate.
but now i have cute prisci keng beside me! :]
imagine the stuff we can do manss.
oh we drew lots and prisci keng cheated -.-
haha sort of. :D
[SHHHHHHH! it's a *secret!]
angie phua even better shouted out haha -.-
she's sitting directly behind me anws.
and apparently JAY CHOU FAN NO.2 is sitting beside angie!
hahaha omg gonna have so much fun with these crazy cute peeps ;D
CLASSES ARE GONNA GET GOING AND FUN AND CRAZYYYY!
ok i shall strive not to doze off in class and listen in class.
and not high with the siao-gaos behind me.
haha but i dun tink i can for the latter.
they are too ADORABLLEEEE! *hearts.
oh yar gonna have movie-ing group le.
heh comprising of me, angie, sam, and and and vulgar or good vocab marieeee!
heh ok
the top 2 shows to watch:
+slam!
+orphanage!
i wanna watch the dunno wad rewind thingo eh.
blehhh. hahaha though i like the above 2 too.
i shall check out the days and timings and inform the rest woohoo.
oh i'm mean today or bad haha.
nvm details shall be enclosed lol.
later i get caught to the police station then i die. :/
O_O ok big offence -.-
oh yeahs.
lunch meeting with sqms sitting on the floor in one of the small corners of the art gallery to talk, or verify problems, or merely doing constructive things..
were i mean CONSTRUCTIVE seriously.
i hope things will be where they are supposed to be.
and not like what it is now.
a bit depressed -.-
time is shooting and flying damn fast.
so i guess we should try and find the old batch 40 backkk!
;D YEAH! that's the way man.
we can do this together sqms!
filming was danm fun though me and jung were drenched by our perspiration -.-
seriously our tops were totally omg translucent at the backk =x
but i guess we were drama enough lol.
and i hope i dun look spastic hahaha.
and and and i felt sad not being able to participate in the second part of filming.
cause i needed to take my pitching tests ):
but having gao chu to sub me, i feel quite balanced haha.
cause she's chao animated too :D
cct was ermmm.. how to say?
there's hard work put within everything we did.
it was obvious and could be seen in every sqm.
the look in their eyes, the posture they were having throughout..
their messy hair, dirty pt kits, jiayous everywhere, the tense atmosphere at times..
the disappointed looks on sqms, the happy and smiley looks on sqms, the hopeful look and phew-it's-finishing look.. the we-can-pass-if-we-believe-in-everybody look.
all these marks the cct.
the looks in our eyes were saying we were tired [after maybe pegging? most of sqms.] but we are going to continue on the rest of the pitching{for me} and specialisation {for everyone.}
sqms were all focused on what they were doing and yeahs.
i hope our determination could be seen.
i tink the hiong-ness that we all had, while trying to chiong for the timing as well as quality.
both segments were important.
though the results may not turn that good.
but it's the effort and thought we put in it.
how we finished it.. how we tried to go beyond our limits..
how we discover that we can actually do it if we had a strong will.
there were some 遗憾s for me.
well, i guess for a few sqms too.
they were mainly my bowlines and window flaps.
pitches are haizzz.. but nvm the teamwork that everyone had together was great.
bowlines- apparently the folding was wrong or sth, but there was sth wrong.
i used ma'ams' method of opening only half and tying 4 first.
the last middle two when i flipped open the whole sheet, i was SHOCKED O_O
that's the hole where the dolly should be placed in, not bowlines.
i was frantic, i looked everywhere for the holes, knowing that they were at the end, my hands weren't working accoring to my brain.
i just decided to tie it at the locations where i knew was wrong.
this is bad D:
window flaps- i dunno am i too slow? yea i am. i didn't finish. oh mans. and the other disgusting one was hanging down there with the lowerpart not tied up. i feel disappointed.
maybe cause i wasted time retying the lower part for the other one though i tried to be as quick as possible. :/
life's not forever smooth-sailing eh?
it can never be and the only thing to do is to go all the way through the 'choppy waters' and emerge as the real champion.
perhaps not champion.
but emerging as a new 'you'.
a new discovered 'you'
cct isn't over yet.
so i shall jiayou jiayou for thursday!
with the will in mind, everything can be conquered!
and today,
i found a new 'me'.
a PHILOSOPHICAL me haha.
a REFLECTIVE me. xD
Monday, March 24, 2008 3/24/2008 09:54:00 PM
that's my disgusting finger can't really see anything but.
yeah it's swollen by the side and erm there's..
internal bleeding.
ok it's swollen for the whole segment.
hopefully it can still do wad it's supposed to do tmr! :]
ok quality not good cause lighting not good. ignore my legs.
xD kk it's supposedly a curve along my first segment of my finger.
where the blood clots are there haiz
with a cut too -.-
kk it's getting gross
jyjy sqms!
;D
i shall be brave and carry on with life.
3/24/2008 08:58:00 PM
i am bad today oh no.
[edit]
i just found out sth about somebody.
that i never knew..
after reading..
and i guess i am..
shocked. is that the word for it?
i dunno.
i just felt angry[?]
erm.. pure disgust.
or i feel cheated nvm.
i dun want to have anything not even friendship..
between that person.
because i feel disgusted and disappointed.
arghh.
i don't wanna have any link with you anymore.
you will be banned from me.
i hate you.
[/edit]
ok nvm.
that's all haha.
my life still goes on.
today right..
did prac for erm.. tomorrow's campcraft test.
haiz still can't meet the requirements. -.-
shall jyjy tmr!
;D
actually wanted to blog some very erm..
philosophical stuff that sqms were talking abt while going home.
like define doing your best and stuff.
but my mood was rather destroyed
by something.
so yeah i dun wanna talk anymore.
i just wanna talk to mc.
i dunno why.
she makes me feel alot alot better.
at least i can face the things now.
damn you.
arghhh
i tink it's time everything stops!
yes.
i'm just gonna chiong my way tmr ;D
AND HOPEFULLY.
everything goes well.
i'll do my best.
even when there's no limit to anyone's abilities.
as well as i never know wad's the real person in everyone i know.
urghhhh.
now my zen is in a not good state..
haiz i miss it eh. D:
I PEGGED MY FINGER AGAIN 3 TIMES TODAY.
i call myself accident-prone haha xD
no matter how injured i am tmr, i'm gonna continue on! yay!
anw, who wants watch SLAM with me?
;D
Sunday, March 23, 2008 3/23/2008 04:17:00 PM
;D HERE IS MY JAYYIE! loves.
so cute right? hahaha. actually there's a female one in pinkk.
but it's supposed to resemble jayyy so i bought the guy one which looks more zai and cute!
;D HAPPY HAPPY!
"yo dude!"
'wassup with the ring?'
"erm.. for fun moron."
the spokesperson for billabong as well as creative zen..
and some GCE O level physics guidebk..
hahaha as well as popular notebooks -.-
hahah i'm still craving for my ice-cream.
sad..
but i'm having my FAVOURITE BUBBLE TEA LATER!!
hope dinner's good. since breakfast and lunch were sorta ahem.
xD
3/23/2008 03:49:00 PM
yesterday was funfunfun!
but ehh money wise hahaha -.-
erm seeing people fainting with a thud on the floor the whole training for npap was crazy.
it was pure scary.
all the stretchers rushing in.
first-aiders rushing footsteps.. while we are rehearsing the parade.
the ambulances sending people out to hospital continuously.
this leads to commotion throughout.
i was silently jiayou-ing ct teams for nynp as well as nynp people in the parade.
not to faint or fall out and endure..
for this is only a rehearsal.
i guess we did well ;D
though my face was damn hot when i met sqms and can't even talk hahaha xD
next was endless shopping.. jkjk xD
went to eat beef noodlesssss. wahahah. EH SIM PINGTING!
tell you buy dry de you dun wan buy soup one still dare say me "any food, also nice to jiayuin."
haiyo! apparently dry ones are nice :]
dun get scam next time. i never liked soup ones haha.
but there's a place where it sells 传统 beef noodles which are REALLY REALLY DAMN NICE.
since the food critique jung was down there, criticising everything in her bowl. -.-
but yeah me and pinky ate chendol later so nice eh -.-
we were the FASTEST WOO!! pinky should be proud cause she's always the slowesttt. (:
then went to shop around for siu's present.
me and pinky went crazy when we went past some video shop or sth..
cause the tv's showing kungfu dunk the last parttt!
then we HYPERVENTILATED. like how mc used to do.
then watched with chu for a while..
see no sqms. see sqms in minitoons! {shopping le heh xD}
didn't join them, went to zinc to look look with pinky.
i saw one that i like xD ok.. but yeah no chance of buying :/
came out since the one pinky fancies not there.
went back to minitoons looked at cute voodoos.
haha some so zai, some so funny, SOME ARE SO HORNY!! D:
yep =x saw one that is a cowboy one.
so cute eh LOOKS LIKE JAY CHOU IN HIS NEWEST ALBUM wahah.
so temptation temptation. bought it lala :D
went aries {forever will go de whenever we go shopping =x}
ok haha looked around again..
me and pinky were walking around and laughing dunno at wad.
then we decided to buy COUPLE RINGS!
and we looked at some in a plastic container.
found a rose design or wad de.
and it costs O_O haha.
i was nice and paid almost half of it for pinky's :]
present la present la ;D
she was so gan dong hahaha.
den went home with chu and pooh.
i took a bet with the skyyy.
and i won ;D
ok maybe you all dun understand..
[hint: it was raining at cck but not at bukit gombak.]
[hint2: i can walk home from gombak, or i take bus from batok which i dun like nowadays.]
weird me :/
but ehh money wise hahaha -.-
erm seeing people fainting with a thud on the floor the whole training for npap was crazy.
it was pure scary.
all the stretchers rushing in.
first-aiders rushing footsteps.. while we are rehearsing the parade.
the ambulances sending people out to hospital continuously.
this leads to commotion throughout.
i was silently jiayou-ing ct teams for nynp as well as nynp people in the parade.
not to faint or fall out and endure..
for this is only a rehearsal.
i guess we did well ;D
though my face was damn hot when i met sqms and can't even talk hahaha xD
next was endless shopping.. jkjk xD
went to eat beef noodlesssss. wahahah. EH SIM PINGTING!
tell you buy dry de you dun wan buy soup one still dare say me "any food, also nice to jiayuin."
haiyo! apparently dry ones are nice :]
dun get scam next time. i never liked soup ones haha.
but there's a place where it sells 传统 beef noodles which are REALLY REALLY DAMN NICE.
since the food critique jung was down there, criticising everything in her bowl. -.-
but yeah me and pinky ate chendol later so nice eh -.-
we were the FASTEST WOO!! pinky should be proud cause she's always the slowesttt. (:
then went to shop around for siu's present.
me and pinky went crazy when we went past some video shop or sth..
cause the tv's showing kungfu dunk the last parttt!
then we HYPERVENTILATED. like how mc used to do.
then watched with chu for a while..
see no sqms. see sqms in minitoons! {shopping le heh xD}
didn't join them, went to zinc to look look with pinky.
i saw one that i like xD ok.. but yeah no chance of buying :/
came out since the one pinky fancies not there.
went back to minitoons looked at cute voodoos.
haha some so zai, some so funny, SOME ARE SO HORNY!! D:
yep =x saw one that is a cowboy one.
so cute eh LOOKS LIKE JAY CHOU IN HIS NEWEST ALBUM wahah.
so temptation temptation. bought it lala :D
went aries {forever will go de whenever we go shopping =x}
ok haha looked around again..
me and pinky were walking around and laughing dunno at wad.
then we decided to buy COUPLE RINGS!
and we looked at some in a plastic container.
found a rose design or wad de.
and it costs O_O haha.
i was nice and paid almost half of it for pinky's :]
present la present la ;D
she was so gan dong hahaha.
den went home with chu and pooh.
i took a bet with the skyyy.
and i won ;D
ok maybe you all dun understand..
[hint: it was raining at cck but not at bukit gombak.]
[hint2: i can walk home from gombak, or i take bus from batok which i dun like nowadays.]
weird me :/
please ignore background. it's horny haha. btw i realised how small my finger is compared to normal people. I'M ABNORMAL shizz.
this is the emo road. stupid cab and car at first nobody on the road de :/
hahaha. looks so deserted. the wind was howling and the leaves were flying all over me.
i'm serious xD
that's the ring on a nice background.
apparently it's my physics textbook.
woah i so guai right? mugging for physics :/
this is another blurrish angle, where i dunno wad i'm focusing at.
-.-
uploading pics of my mini 'jayyie' later!
ok i decided to name my voodoo 'JAYYIE'!
yay. jayyie rocks :D
Saturday, March 22, 2008 3/22/2008 08:50:00 PM
dilemma.
ohman. ):
sometimes i know that i don't but..
sometimes you make me feel like trying again and again.
sometimes what i saw or found out make me feel like giving up.
sometimes 我知道我在乎你.
sometimes i don't know what i feel exactly.
sometimes i just don't want to accept the fact.
sometimes you make me "so what exactly you want me to do?"
but i know that i liked everything.
but there's stuff i don't like.
and you make me feel that too.
so should i just give up or continue trying?
:/
Friday, March 21, 2008 3/21/2008 09:52:00 PM
is it difficult to tell me who is it?
and claiming it to be yeah?
maybe i'm so easily pissed in your impression of me.
so let it be.
i dun mind.
at most you make me hate you.
yes. hate.
3/21/2008 09:29:00 PM
so nice eh! xD
oh the pic shows that they got a pair of rings hahaha.
-.- but i tink they damn cool :D
their koi is so :]
haha if you even understand nvm.
oh and the guy's hair damn cool ah! =x
make hiro look so much more shuai :D
BETTER THAN BLACKKKK lol.
O_O okk
i need to erm..
study physics haha
polish BADGES LATERRRR!!
boots *check!
yayyyy!
i feel SUPER DUBER HAPPY!
:]
<3
3/21/2008 04:02:00 PM
very very high haha.
i love skittles i love skittles i love skittles i love skittles
yay :D
buy me skittles next time haha xD
this post totally no content -.- sorry! =x
聽著自己的心跳 沒有規則地跳躍
我安靜地在思考 並不想被誰打擾
我們曾緊緊擁抱 卻又輕易地放掉
那種感覺很微妙 該怎麼說才好
時間分割成對角 停止你對我的好
瓦解我們的依靠
在你離開之後的天空 我像風箏尋一個夢
雨後的天空 是否有放晴後的面容
我靜靜的望著天空 試著尋找失落的感動
只能用笑容 期待著雨過天晴的彩虹
聽著自己的心跳 沒有規則地跳躍
我安靜地在思考 並不想被誰打擾
我們曾緊緊擁抱 卻又輕易地放掉
那種感覺很微妙 該怎麼說才好
時間分割成對角 停止你對我的好
瓦解我們的依靠
在你離開之後的天空 我像風箏尋一個夢
雨後的天空 是否有放晴後的面容
我靜靜的望著天空 試著尋找失落的感動
只能用笑容 期待著雨過天晴的彩虹
在你離開之後的天空 我像風箏尋一個夢
雨後的天空 是否有放晴後的面容
我靜靜的望著天空 試著尋找失落的感動
只能用笑容 期待著雨過天晴的彩虹
在你離開之後的天空 我像風箏尋一個夢
我靜靜地望著天空 試著尋找失落的感動
*天空
晴天就是心情好
雨天就是在哭泣
夕阳就是好害羞
夜空则是温柔的拥抱
飞机划过云层
则是迎接早晨的微笑 (:
Thursday, March 20, 2008 3/20/2008 10:20:00 PM
@!%^$%#!@%^!%
ARGHHHHH D:
dun let me go dun need to call _ and _ right?
super pissed off mood now.
i tried talking nicely to you.
just to let you allow me not to go for another wk.
and you just start SHOUTING and THREATENING me!
what kinda thing is this?
damned. :/
i'm spamming skittles in my mouth now.
3/20/2008 09:55:00 PM
I LOVE SKITTLESSSS!
hahaha though eating alot consecutively makes my throat feel weird ahah.
today was -.- O_O ): D: :/ (: :D *muacks Zzzz..
ok so i was feeling -.- in the morn causee i forgot to bring my calculator for math test though i reminded myself b4 leaving the house..
but got it in the end yays
O_O was during math test. when i saw the dumb paper.
when i spent like dunno how long on the first 2 questions ><
felt sad cause left blanks and marks just flewwww awayyy!
but haiz nvm lar.
i noob ma dunno how do.
stupid ma if never sleep early yesterday then can mug for math then wun fear failing..
now i'm dying -.-
then chem no expression on it.
cause i never mug and nothing that needed info from any notes or tb was needed.
so YEAH! HAHAHAHA ok quite happy.
know how to do :D
got careless mistakes though cause i was sleepy ma then yeah never process properly.
how sad. :/
after that was stoning after school.
gossiping with mc, chu, pinky, jung, melia {listening haha}.
then gao chuxi so glutton ah..
keep buying food ah!
ok i also la but haha yeah.
then she got stomachache then blame me..
cause went for filming then after that was ct training.
then she stomachache -.- my fault againnn...
filming was spastic :D
FUN FUN FUN!!!
full of cute-ness xD
then after that stoned in school with siu to wait for ct sqms to EAT DINNER TOGETHER WOOTS.
SO YEAHHHH..
we slept on our crumpler bags on the canteen benches.. lol for a while.
then neck pain so just lalala..
sqms let off early today!!
then ate spastic dinner..
with all the spastic stuff and content.
sqms were saying i laugh in different forms.
as in can vary de -.-
ok i admit haha i abnormal too bad... :D
BUT IT WAS FUN AND I WAS GLAD I DIDN'T GO HOME TO SLEEP.
:] i guess having company is always better and when it's SUPER SQMS!
was highing like mad and laughing damn loudly hahaha.
damn fun
i realised i like hiro alot alot. hahaha xD
kk
oh yeahs yang cong was the SONG OF THE DAYYY!! (:
and the phrase for YESTERDAY was "leave me alone!" hahaha.
ok inside joke nvm. :]]]
Tuesday, March 18, 2008 3/18/2008 09:12:00 PM
haishh jyjy everyone for the BIOLOGY BLOCK TEST!
i'm dying.
i'm not sleeping tonight.
yay -.-
tmr even worse need chiong maths pracs and CHEM
wow O_O
plus npap i'm dead-ed even more :/
oh gosh. nvm i'm gonna mug like crazy for block tests.
can't afford to just flunk it yeah?
so JYJY BA! =P
oh mansss i can do this! yeah?
yep!
kk back to intense mugging for bio bleagh. D:
*我知道星星很远摘不到
也晓得流星划过就看不到
只怕一眨眼，就错过...
你对我的好! ):
I can never accept that
And carry on with life.
只能说我输了!
Monday, March 17, 2008 3/17/2008 08:28:00 PM
I WANTTTT LEARN
ELECTRICCC GUITARRRR!!
rahhh. >(
dun care i shall save up to buy a BLACK AND YELLOW blasting one.
drums shall be my next target :D
buy YELLOW drumsticks.. {not chicken oh! X)}
3/17/2008 08:15:00 PM
it was so sad, yet so sweet.
he was so shuai, yet i know it's not real.
it was so nice, yet it will
maybe i will never want it to happen.
like what angie says.
she does not want a 凄美的爱情
but a 简单的爱... :DDDDDDDD
that's all that's needed i guess yeah?
xD
PS: I rather be the sky.
To look over you, and protect you in times of need.
<3
You are like a river to me.
Always flowing forward.
Sunday, March 16, 2008 3/16/2008 01:17:00 AM
i wantttt watch..
恋空！SLAM!
the first one is jap romance movie.. looks nice hahaha. xD
the second one is a bball related de.. GOT MACHI DIDI INSIDE!!
haha he so tall le yeah 183cm!! wahah then he gonna play bball so cool.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD must see how shuai he is hahaha.
-.-
kk i tink this is the wrong time to blog haha.
but my parents haven't come back from running yet O_o
hahaha
they buying SUPPER FOR ME AND MY BRO TO EAT LOL..
what an unearthly timing yeahs?
oh yeah i tink i need a superb hug before my block tests.
otherwise i'm gonna die le.
bleagh totally cannot survive it ><
ahahah..
<3
Saturday, March 15, 2008 3/15/2008 07:47:00 PM
today was spastic :D
learning lab was coollll today :]
haha did individual presentation.
where apparently we are supposed to prep beforehand..
but having such a FUNky teacher she decided we should do impromptu today!!
with topics she gave which are hilarious...
lol not the boring ones on the handouts (:
i tink my teacher rockkkkk olehhs.
i tink mine was super stupid.
but she said "it was an excellent presentation. FANTASTIC! good job! i like the sense of humour you injected inside. the humour was good. the part where you said it was an irony was even BETTER! on the whole it was superb."
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
yay hahah.
my topic was hahaha ok lar. nvm.
this kinda let us know more about each other in the class :]
yays bonding session hahaha.
back home haishhh.
packed my whole study room till chao neat de
cause tmr apparently my bro's tuition teacher coming so must have neat place for conducive environment to study -.-
yeahs and some irritating stuff happened which made me pissed.
but it's ok after that! yay!
btw i found out i start mugging right..
but my hmk untouched wow.
super right?
now need chiong le like going to be end of hols haiz..
oh another quite pissing thing.
next wk is block test weekk.. {ok that's not the pissing part!}
tues got act {that confirm got de lar.. so not pissing.}
BUTBUTBUT!!!!
WED GOT NPAP TRAINING ARHHHHHHHH!!
walao esp when the next day's tests are math and chemmm.
good job good job :/
somemore i tink i'm not gonna go home.
12.30pm still got home siao.
stay in school study then zao to acs barker.
dunno eh ask 41 ba.. cause need go together.
then i'm gonna reach home like i dunno what time..
OOLAHHHS!
then tell me i tired tired go home study wad? revise wad?
next day test byebye le.
OHMAN BYEBYE CHEM AND MATHHH! O_o
ok half pissed.
another thing.
SATURDAY GOT NPAP TRAINING ALSO ARHHH!
if i'm not wrong it's full u..
friday good friday need prep u.
how GOOD is that?
somemore mon got physics more dieeee..
totally dun get anything for physics can?
AHHHHHHH! walao ok whatever.
i also cannot change anything haha.
eeyerrr then now need chiong like mad..
bleagh.
nvm. jiayuin very strong de. jiayuin can do it de! yays! :]
*再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎
因为我不在乎
所以才会哭
Friday, March 14, 2008 3/14/2008 09:20:00 PM
i'm sick of my blog song.
being so emo and stuff.
and i listen till i very sick le.
so yeahs :D
BACK TO MY JAY CHOU'S SONGSSSS! :]
*hooray!*
3/14/2008 07:09:00 PM
oh man what the crap.
on the way back home, i was thinking a lot a lot.
far too much for my brain to process all of it.
which cause me to ughhh again.
and reaching home seeing no-one
made me worse..
haishhh. sometimes i think i shouldn't be left alone.
it's too quiet and too much space for myself and my mind to start wandering off..
and soon my emotions will just go haywire.
no matter how happy i am earlier in the day.
sh!t now i'm back to what i felt yesterday night.
i seriously think i should stop..
all these isn't making my life easier.
all i wanted was a easier life with no much to worry about.
cause seriously this year there's a lot of stuff weighing me..
all the way downnn.
arghh.
don't feel like talking again like yesterday.
oh good. D:
nothing to talk more about anw..
everything's gonna be what it is right now.
nothing's gonna change.
so yeah..
this sounds crappish.
ok it is crap.
i don't even wanna listen to myself anymore.
痛苦从眼中流下，我知道你为我擦
我渺小，但我知道我需要明了(as in understand.)
已假装不了，我走过的没人懂
有些事我不想说出口
所拥有的力量，全都没了。
i need people to console meee.. ok though i'm horrible at it. ):
i wannntttt a huggggg nowwwwww. -.-
Thursday, March 13, 2008 3/13/2008 07:34:00 PM
我的天空今天有一点灰.. ><
ok maybe now i'm not happy.
mc just told me some stuff.
actually it all makes sense as to why you only know and learn all the fun that is incalcated in np only when you join and endure it?
why is it that everyone have a impression that np is too taxing for the body, not fun, just plain drills, not like gg, very strict and stuff like that?
i also dunno eh.
these things are really quite problematic.
and it gets stuck in the mind for quite long..
but a solution is needed asap cause the problem is getting BIG.
and quite rush too.
so i'm just gonna say please change your attitude towards np.
and APPEAL TO CHANGE TO NP!!
or do we really keep the fun and everything within the unit like what mc says?
i kinda agree with the mega huge thingo.
like start doing all the fun stuff organised by the school..
or anything.
cause it's only then..
we can publicise np as well as let people start to understand we actually do such fun stuff when they start to realise we actually take part in alot of fun activities.
and people will start joining due to the fun,
the passion that lies within.
are you all game for that?
3/13/2008 07:10:00 PM
OH YAR..
I'M
SICKKKKKK!!
D:
oh mansss..
whatever i'm gonna overcome this and continue my mugging
*coughsniffcough*
*sniffcoughsniff*
how amazing.
THANK YOU EH!
make me sick at this point in time >(
ughhh..
bleaghhh.
arghhhhhhhhh!
3/13/2008 04:33:00 PM
三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意
3/13/2008 04:10:00 PM
yoz people!
today is a happy me again!!
except for the part that i'm stuck at home today to have a full-course mugging sensation..
zzz.
ok oh i just studied for a while in the morn and *poof.
i went to cut my disgusting freakingly ugly hair {when not tied ><} off.
yay!!
haha the hairdresser was nice lar.
considering helping me cut for almost an hour or so, giving me a free hairwash with shampoo plus massaging, applying some moisturizer lotion AND HELPING ME STYLE MY HAIRRRR!!
rawrrr HAHA she kinda rocked.
for just secondary school student price of $10! :D
oleh. i tink she just did it for me cause she tinks i'm too chio hahaha.
serious eh. i was puking down there.
and she was telling my mum "you have a pretty girl here."
"she's very pretty you know.."
and i'm like ughhh. stop it. you are lying through your teeth i know it.
then my mum was giving the fake smile and laughs. -_-
the way she helped me style was ok lar.
but not what i wanted and what would be considered me..
so upon reaching home and eating lunch..
i told my mum i wanna wash the gel or whatever away.
and she's like HUH? WHEN SHE WASHED IT FOR YOU JUST NOW?
i'm like yeah cause the styling sucks {oops!}
then my mum was like ok whatever. if you want you can go batheeee it all off.
HOORAYYYE!
and now i tink i look normal
and her cutting skills were good.
:D I LIKE MY HAIRSTYLE NOW.
hahahahah. cause it's kinda diff from what it is in the past.
and from how i washed my hair and removed the gel and all the styling done.
so next time i shall go back to her..
though she's rather slowwww. sorry ah =x
oh she talked to my mum about how lazy she had never been going for exercise and how fat she is now.. and how fit and healthy my mum looks.
apparently cause my parents are OBSESSED with running..
and they are like going everyday?!
just cause they signed up for some 42km marathon.
AHAHAHAHAHA. jokers.
my mum was rather entertained by her too.
since it's a 1h cut she didn't feel bored at all.
i was giving the O_O!! face throughtout.
hahaha two adults can't blame them X_X
btw the hairdresser was spastic.
dunno what got into her and she suddenly asked me..
"eh girl ah. do you have a bf?"
come on.. imagine my reaction.. and my MUM'S.
and apparently my mum is more open than my dad.
so she was giving me the you-got-right-nvm-la-i-won't-scold-you look.
then i replied her look with a yeah-right-like-real look.
"auntie ah. mei you lar. bu yao luan luan jiang." that's my reply.
and the auntie started laughing like mad..
i was SHOCKED OK?
" ni you la ni you la. " was her reply plus more giggling.
and i instantly dao-ed her.
and say "zhe li yao duan yi dian."
hahaha good method eh.
but she's spastic to ask this kind of questions..
but she was nice to me :D
so yeahs i'm gonna go back someday..
when my hair turns disgusting again hahahaa.
kk.
need go mug le. :D
OH YAR I'M HUNGRY SHALL GO GRAB SOMETHING TO EAT FIRST
heh ^^
PS: i tink it's ok ba. easier to resume back. :]]
Wednesday, March 12, 2008 3/12/2008 06:59:00 PM
feeling happy today :D
went for chem remedial where apparently only 16 people went.
but still quite a lot.
and apparently whatever she explains is a [O_O]? to me.
cause apparently i don't think she knows how to explain.
and apparently she came in and said..
"we finished ionic bonding right?"
me and angie were like WOW!! -_-
oh ya i sat with angie cause apparently everybody's anyhow sitting..
the lesson was ok lar.
at least quite constructive.
but i thought physics was the best.
THE WHOLE LESSON WAS CONSTRUCTIVE :D
yay.. at least i understand more now.
quite fun.
oh before chem, me and angie went library to..
YEAHS!!
good job man! {pat on back for myself and angie!}
we are so gonna pass it oleh
ok let's not be too yea.
but i guess there's a lot of stuff there.
went photocopying after chem lesson,
which dragged for another hour. {ARGHHH!}
then yeah chiong-ed like shit.
cause need go eat lunch with angie.
then need buy lunch for brother.
and he'll reach home at around 1.30pm!!
when we reached coro prince cafe,
it was 12.45pm.. oh man.
then we went in and sawwwww..
CYNTHIA WONG and chiachia :D
cyn was so hyper to see me ahah.
me and angie were hyper too.
and we high-ed inside uhhh.
and apparently there's one guy there {hcjc de.}
sitting alone and eating.
then i was telling angie that he look emo.
like shi1 lian4 like that.
where CYNTHIA agreed with me after we changed tables and sat together.
{oh the process of changing was FUNNY!}
hahaha.
oh then cynthia was saying he shi lian then go gao3 gay.
cause after we ate like halfway..
a small guy came in and sat with him.
then he finished and they were leaving.
i was saying he is she4 hui4 bai4 lei4 cause shi lian only wad turn gay for wad.
then cynthia was laughing like mad with me.
angie was practically trying to fiddle with her fork and spoon to cut her chicken.
hahahahaha!
OH AND I WAS CHIONG-ING MY LUNCH TOO.
cause i dunno if my brother's got the key to the hse and angie keep saying i'm mean and he could be starving so i was like "uhh ok you eat faster lar!"
then she ate ultra unglamly.
eh ALLITERATION HAHAHA.
oh then me and angie was saying how inconsiderate the guy was..
cause he sat on a round table which consists of 5 chairs and he was alone.
otherwise we can sit all together.
then we were like telling cynthia.
then she's like GO ASK LAR.
then she really went to ask.
BUT ASKED THE WRONG PERSON.
oh man.
then the njc people there were laughing at us.
then yar but nvm lar we sat on A EVEN BIGGER TABLE HAHAHA.
oh and i realised something interesting about cynthia.
SHE CAN VIBRATE HER EYEBALLS VIGOROUSLY.
i mean seriously.
it's freaky ok?
then her seniors were all "eek"-ing down there though they wanted to see it first.
-_-
oh you all think that's the end of the happy day?
NO WAY MAN.
meet zhao chen on 852.
was totally going crazy on the bus.
the bus driver is so mean. that's all i can say.
SO MEAN. ok nvm not the point.
so angie was laughing like some siao zhar bor.
i was laughing ok-ly.
and zhaochen was giving the "unbelieveable. i'm stuck with these two crazy woman till the last stop at the interchange." look.
hahaha.
then we were sitting in front and we moved to the back.
cause sound waves travel and we were being SO NICE not to disturb others.
hahaha yeah right.
and we HIGH-ED HIGH-ED HIGH-ED
and talked talked talked about b.
reached westmall at 2.30pm
CAN YOU IMAGINE I WAS GOING CRAZY THINKING ABOUT HOW STARVED MY BROTHER'S GOING TO BE?
cause angie keeps reminding me about it. ><
returned books with angie and zhaochen.
where zhaochen tried to cut through some bukit view students.
and she told us one guy said "shit."
and the other girl said "f!ck"
or is it the other way round.
ok whatever but it still reflected the same thing.
what's up with seeing us from nanyang?
and i was going all about the fact on..
"the combined factors that caused us to be different from them"
apparently we can name the combined factors while they can't
thus we are in nanyang..
what do they want?
wth.
oh and angie was still trying to say we are smarter or stuff like that.
and zhaochen was going "eh angie so mean."
hahaha so the conclusion was the above chim statement.
:D
i just took a look at my prog report and hahaha omg
it totally ROCKED! :D
amazing eh!! :]]]]]]
and and i bought duck rice for my bro to eat cause he likes marh.
then in the end dinner my father bought DUCK RICE TOO.
then he's like "AH? NOT AGAIN?"
and i feel honoured to make meichun not feel
PS: is being partial gonna be weird? dunno eh. =.=
3/12/2008 06:33:00 PM
我很清楚 爱是双数 我不哭 哭也没帮助
配合演出 心里有数 下一幕 你就要退出
当你淡出 心被空出 都不算数
爱的单数剩除不尽的孤独
被出卖的爱 单行的未来
你说过感动不是爱 我为谁悲哀
被出卖的爱 单程回不来
没能耐再把心剖开 活著但我不存在
我太糊涂 爱是变数 再复出也是留不住
配合演出 心里有数 你说不再没有假如
当你淡出 心被空出 都不算数
爱的单数剩除不尽的孤独
被出卖的爱 单行的未来
你说过感动不是爱 我为谁悲哀
被出卖的爱 单程回不来
没能耐再把心剖开 活著但我不存在
被出卖的爱 单行的未来
你说不是爱 我为谁悲哀
被出卖的爱 单程回不来
没能耐再把心剖开 活著但我不存在
我明白落单了的爱 不存在
Tuesday, March 11, 2008 3/11/2008 10:50:00 PM
Maybe everything will not be real
After I wake up from my sleep.
Let's hope so.
And let's hope not.
3/11/2008 10:28:00 PM
多想要找到一絲掙扎在妳臉上
可是妳美得冷得淡得像月亮
等著妳的那輛車 燈閃一下
像催妳草草斷了我們的過往
約好要每年回到初擁吻的地方
劃一個記號寫下相戀的感想
等明年我剩一個人 坐在堤防
改唱首什麼歌來紀念愛的傻
讓你逃亡 又讓你回航
我讓你依賴 我也讓你倔強
只要你微笑 帶一點感動的淚光
我就能夠得到再給的力量
我讓你飛翔 又讓你說謊
我讓你苛求 我也讓你奢望
我還以為愛 就是要體貼的退讓
我們一起蓋的羅馬 妳卻跟他拆了城牆
踩過我用摯愛建築的天堂
約好要每年回到初擁吻的地方
劃一個記號寫下相戀的感想
等明年我剩一個人 坐在堤防
改唱首什麼歌來紀念愛的傻
讓你逃亡 又讓你回航
我讓你依賴 我也讓你倔強
只要你微笑 帶一點感動的淚光
我就能夠得到再給的力量
我讓你飛翔 又讓你說謊
我讓你苛求 我也讓你奢望
我還以為愛 就是要體貼的退讓
我們一起蓋的羅馬 妳卻跟他拆了城牆
踩過我用摯愛建築的天堂
太絕對的愛 變成了活該 朋友要我責怪
我卻只想重來 也許這就叫愛
我讓你飛翔 又讓你說謊
我讓你苛求 我也讓你奢望
我還以為愛 就是要體貼的退讓
我們一起蓋的羅馬 妳卻跟他拆了
城牆踩過我用摯愛建築的天堂
多少日子蓋的羅馬 妳用一夜拆了城牆
踩碎我曾讓妳棲息的胸膛
3/11/2008 10:13:00 PM
haha
hahaha
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
ok i'm being mean.
but it's super funny.
sorry ah can't stand it.
:D thanks anw :]
that i actually have somebody
ahahahahahahahaha.
okok. getting stupid
^^
byebye
was almost going to emo this afternoon {about different stuff}
but turned out ok now!
:DDDDD
yes ok byebye.
Monday, March 10, 2008 3/10/2008 10:39:00 PM
break record liao.
fourth post in a day woots.
WHAT THE PIANG EH!
I very pissed now.
I think I'm gonna go hit my head on the wall at this instance.
STOP labelling me.
behind my back somemore.
no matter who you are
no matter how close you are to me
you have no rights to do that.
not even my parents
not like I don't have the choice to say I don't want to forgive you
actually in fact I don't feel anything
cause I heard it so many many times
and the thing is it's never what you all thought
no matter how I explain
the conclusion is forever stuck on me
SO WHY BOTHER?
even if I explain
you all may not even be able to accept it
the explanation needs open-minded people to listen to
if you're NOT
YOU ARE NOT FIT TO EVEN LISTEN TO ME!
so just shut up.
have you ever considered how I felt?
do you really think I'm so stupid as to not sense anything?
I can be nice to forgive and forget
but can you do that and STOP..
PLAYING A FOOL OUT OF ME?!
cause I'm bleeding {ok quite exaggerated..}
I'M HURT BY THE COMMENTS GIVEN BY YOU ALL.
if somebody says that you are like shit {for example.} or whatever
CAN YOU TAKE IT?
FURTHERMORE IT'S A MORE SERIOUS WORD.
what you think of who I am
IS NOT WHO I AM.
only I KNOW WHO I AM.
so stop judging me
and trying to fit me into something that you think I am.
CAUSE I'M NOT.
and by doing so
you all made me find out who you all actually are
YOU ARE NOT THE ONES WHO ARE GONNA STAND BY ME WHEN I NEED YOU
AND I DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT THAT
I DON'T EVEN WANT YOU ALL TO STAND BY ME.
damned
ok I really am pissed..
but at least I rant finish le.
what you all think IS WHAT YOU THINK.
I AM WHO I AM.
not some object for you to say and label and judge my character by the "actions" I take.
the "actions" are not even verified.
you just take it as it is and just label me.
I AM UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED.
this time round I don't think I can forget.
though I can forgive.
I HATE YOU
3/10/2008 08:56:00 PM
I promised I won't emo again [yeah I still remember..]
At least not for unknown reasons
So I'm not emo-ing.
Life hasn't been good for me
Nothing's going the way I want it to be
Everything's going the opposite direction
Where I can't chase them back
Maybe the only good thing is that I got a bunch of good friends
That I can always rely on
When they are needed just for me
Sometimes I don't even want to think about it
Let's just take a step everytime
And see where it leads to
If it's the wrong way,
There may still be a slighest chance for you to
turn back.
For me,
I did something really really really wrong.
I can never undo it
I can't forgive myself either
I think the rest can't too
What's wrong with me man?
No matter what I still shouldn't have done that
And no matter how I don't want to remember it
It always comes back
and I hate it.
My studies is so screwed now.
I don't even understand a single thing.
{for some subjects D:}
I NEED TO WORK HARDERRRRRRR!
and listen in class.
For now,
I can only pray that I don't fail any subjects.
*What kind of life is this?
A loser's.
yes. I'm a loser.
3/10/2008 03:28:00 PM
Maybe life isn't exactly what I thought it would be
Never as nice and wonderful as I want it to be
No matter how hard I try..
It never worked.
And never did.
and all I can say is that
this sucks.
3/10/2008 03:13:00 PM
When you feel all alone
When you feel the whole world has turned its back on you
When you feel like knocking your head on the wall
When you feel you cannot take it anymore
When you feel like crumbling down
When you feel like crying out loud
When you feel you cannot face the world anymore
When you feel that you are stuck at the end
When you feel nothing's worth thinking
When you feel that all you needed was nothing
When you feel like you did not exist at all
When you feel like screaming your head off on a building
When you feel like being in your own world
When you feel like this world is crap and rubbish
When you feel you wanted somebody to be beside you
Maybe all of these are what I'm feeling right now.
But I shouldn't be going back to the old "me".
Perhaps I can find out...
One Day.
Sunday, March 09, 2008 3/09/2008 10:33:00 PM
oh ya i feel like going for movie marathon tmr!
AHAH!
who wan accompany me?
provided i got the KACHING!
i'm free after 2pm. :D
ok maybe i'll do it alone but so
ok nvm :]
if there's nobody then i shall just mug alone at macs..
awwwww~!
life can be as wonderful as i want it to be!
OLEH!
come on i want watch all day longggg -.-
totally in holiday mood le haha xD
=x
3/09/2008 09:39:00 PM
如果你眼神能夠為我 片刻的降臨
如果你能聽到 心碎的聲音
沉默的守護著你 沉默的等奇蹟
沉默的讓自己 像是空氣
大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多開心
最角落裡的我 笑得多合群
盤底的洋蔥像我 永遠是調味品
偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隱藏著自己
如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密
如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能聽到我 看到我的全心全意
聽妳說妳和妳的他們 曖昧的空氣
我和我的絕望 裝得很風趣
我就像一顆洋蔥 永遠是配角戲
多希望能與妳 有一秒 專屬的劇情
如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密
如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能聽到我 看到我的全心全意
如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會發現 你會訝異
你是我 最壓抑 最深處的秘密
如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能聽到我 看到我的全心全意
你會鼻酸 你會流淚
只要你能聽到我 看到我的全心全意
*你可以不要拨开我的心吗？
我不希望有那天的到来
因为我会心酸，我会流泪，我会沉默
我不希望变成空气
隐藏着自己，看着你
把秘密永远留在心里
3/09/2008 07:11:00 PM
i changed blogskin finally!! :D
SERIOUSLY SICK OF LAST TIME'S HAHAHA +_+
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sometimes I really want to be loved.
sometimes I think I am really crazy.
sometimes these thoughts just pop out.
sometimes I just cannot stand it.
sometimes I'll just walk away.
sometimes I'll just leave you there.
sometimes I just cannot seem to remember who I am.
sometimes I don't even know where am I.
sometimes I don't even want to think about it.
yay :D
3/09/2008 05:59:00 PM
how pissing can it get for a red bean bun fan to lose 2 delicious red bean buns just like that?
ok it's 3!
RAHHHHHH D:
excluding the one i gave gao chu.
i got four from BELOVED RED BEAN BUN BUDDY!
but then i brought it home.
and today morning it was NIGHTMARE!!
there's only 2 miserable ones lying on the table.
and i screamed "WHO ATE MY RED BEAN BUNS?"
then my dad came out and say "me. why? i thought nobody wanted to eat."
oh my tian! sad.. and the time needed for the 2 red bean buns are lost just like that in my dad's stomach..
wahhhhhh!
sad.
MY BISCUITS ALSO KENA KOP!
next time i shall just put them in a drawer and lock it.
ahah!
kk i'm just being lame..
byebye
Friday, March 07, 2008 3/07/2008 09:23:00 PM
ONE AND ONLY ARMSTRONG CHEER!!!
give me one ARMSTRONG CLAP!
*clap*
!!HARRRR!! {shows left hand muscles.. -.-}
give me two ARMSTRONG CLAPS!
*clap*
!!harrrrrr!! {shows left hand muscles}
!!HARRRRR!! {shows right hand muscles O_O}
give me THREE ARMSTRONG CLAPSSSS!
*clap*
!!harrrr!! {left hand muscles}
!!HARRR!! {right hand muscles}
!!HARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! {turn them 90 degrees downwards!! =.=}
haha this rocks big time..
and when elton does it it's super funny AHAH!
ok he really got muscles =x
haha
k bleagh time for intense mugging hmk-ing and chiong-ing time..
eew eek eeark poui...
3/07/2008 08:37:00 PM
obs...
it left me a bag of memories..
laughter, sadness, home-sick {at one point in time}, insect bites, still in first pair of trackpants when went to sleep on thurs night when i brought 3 [O_O], bathed officially for only once in 5 days, fearrr, fun, fan club, ZHANG MENGGGG, and lastly..
ARMSTRONG and ELTONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!
HAHA OK.
actually i dun tink i'll miss the obs course that i went thru but rather the people that i bonded with in the 5 days which consists of: {random order :D}
1. chuxi gao
2. hoong shao ting
3. prisci[lla] keng
4. mabel lim.. aka mabelline
5. cynthia wong
6. mindy tjang {woah cool right?}
7. qiao hui
8. priscilla liew
9. shi mun
10. low yeujia
11. pei yiying
12. krystal
13. jeraldine yap
14. eltonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn :D
yeahs they made me continue on my journey for obs when i actually felt like
shed a few tears but yeahs. everything's over. it's ok.
suddenly looking across the waters i see singapore and somehow i felt homesick cause everything sucked at that time.
i felt like i needed someone to hug me haha mass hug me.. -.-
cause while i was pitching the dumb tent..
chuxi was telling me afterwards that i dun look like the usual me and i looked a lil emo and weird.
and i'm like eh? can see oh?
then cause that stupid shao ting ah dunno why start crying then i cannot stand it..
and wept haha omg. i feel spastic now.
oh mans means when i have a change in mood it's darn obvious sadddd. D:
OH WE HAD A FAN CLUBBBB HAHHAHAA OMGOMGOMG!
about 8 people from our watch is in it omgomg :D
and our group is gonna change our name to be called "ZHANG MENG"! haha mabel's "we-imagined" bf hahaha.
so spastic. and we were teasing and playing with it like with mabel and cynthia hahaha.
they totally made my day!! :D
the rest of the people rocks too.
chuxi: total great encouragement to me and helped a lot and did a lot despite being injured I'M PROUD OF YOUUUU!!! and dun emo suddenly next time k? i'll feel ultra sad too.
aiya no energy to write about other people too.
next post will be a detailed and covering everybody post.
I PROMISE! :D
ok. so back to topic..
actually i tink our watch is like totally clicked at first sight?
everybody seems to be able to blend in and reach out for deadlines and stuff.
and somehow elton was impressed on the first day of obs too.
OH OH AND HE SAID WE WERE THE BEST WATCH THAT HE HAD EVER TAKEN IN 15 OF THEM ANDDDDDD WE ARE ONE THAT LEFT HIM EMOTIONALLY ATTACHEDDDDD!!
awwwww~ haha i like your tea though :D IT'S NICE.
we soared right through rgs! HOHOHO!!! :D
ok then urm..
i tink armstrong is a 快and 准 watch.
we seem to be able to do stuff faster than other people though we think we are darn slow.
sorry ah that's wad i tink =x
we tend to be better in stuff that requires co-ordination within everybody moreee.
mabe we have the chemistry between everyone :D
ANDDDDD.. i tink though our personalities are quite different, but we tend to get along quite well despite like other watches where they *hemm*
we are all equally bonded hoorays!!
i will miss the company i had these 5daysss!
oh armstrong peeps haha come find me anytime and we can talk and crap again!! :D
dunno why i got feeling i'll miss mabel lim more haha omg.
cause a lot of high peeps are in my class. urps. :D good thing though ahah!
ohoh! and after saying the last byebye to elton right..
haha he messed up my hairrrrr!! arghhhh..
BUT HAHA I CONSIDER IT AS A FORM OF BLESSING LOLLLL
:D had lotsa fun though there's emo times too.
oh i got twice.. once in the sucky atmosphere and the other was today's debrief!
oh man!
i'll miss everyone!
BTWBTW..
i made buddies during OBSSSS!
chuxi is my KENTANG BUDDY. {cause we always share curry kentang together and feels excited lol :D}
sheryl ng MY RED BEANNNNIE BUDDDDDYYY! {omg we get all so chong1 dong4 when we see obs red bean buns and we always share if we managed to dig/snatch/discover one haha. oh we have red bean hug and cheer too omg :D YOU ROCKKK!}
yeujia my oreo buddy {not really considered but haha at least for a day where we shared all the oreos we can grab ahah!}
yeahs.
obs fun and cool :D
most importantly my friends and watchmates and buddies i made during the whole period..
plus super duper nice elton :D "handsome" omg haha
ps: i bought a red obs shirt and a white sleeveless haha. but i didn't try the size so i anyhow ordered omg haha so typical me heh.
blog a lot more next time :D
LOVES <3
Sunday, March 02, 2008 3/02/2008 04:32:00 PM
^^ yo peeps.
hahaha!! tmr's gonna be OBSOBSOBSOBSOBSOBSOBSOBSOBS!!!
dun read it as sobs haha.
omg it's gonna be damn funnnnn! :D
5 days 4 nights out in the wilddddd -..- yeah right.
:D BUT I'M STILL FEEELING UBER HIGH NOW HAHAHAHAHA.
omg can high with the people in my watch hees
GAO CHUXI! oh ya i need take care of you eh? later injured *choychoy! touchwood!* meliang come kill me.. ma'ams kill me too. everybody kill me D:
HAHA BUT IT'S GONNA BE FUN!
kayak with me k? hee omg later we high on the kayak then capsize lol.
i'm so gonna miss my lovely bed..
touching my lovely keypad of my phone..
my lovely computer!
MY BELOVED MP4!! OMG.. i'm gonna miss all the songs haha.
haha all non-living things.. =p
dun tink i'll miss anybody though hah.
OH YAR.. maybe mb.. -.- hahah xD
ok lame.
i bet my bro will miss me though he says he won't and he will be damn happy cause he'll get to use the comp for the whole day without me nagging him to let me use haha.
awwww.. he'll miss me i know it happened before haha omg.
:D he's kinda cute heh.
but i guess 5 days will pass quite quickly eh?
>< lalas..
then it'll be the chionging of homework and mugging..
as well as mega remedials and lots of catching up to do..
teachers can't seem to finish what they are supposed to teach so yeah..
last resort haha.
haishhh.. stupid school life.
oh there's gonna be mugging sessions too with mb to chiong for term 2 too.
i hope my mum doesn't lock me at home ok?
bleagh.
_ _ _ also during hols oh man and melia said at least 2 daysssss ahhh!!
conver with mum on first march
mum: i want your next week to be used for studying..
me: eh? i'm going for obs!
mum: huh? wad obs?
me: urm.. the going to pulau ubin thingy? with the school?
mum: it's next week? i tot it's 3rd march?
me: *waves frantically*HELLO?! it's first march todayyy.. yoohoo??
mum: oh.. how many days ah?
me: 5..
mum: woah you better study during the hols i tell you.
conver with mum today [second march]
mum: you better score well for your tests next term..
me: orh i know lar.
mum: otherwise dun even tink of on-ing the comp.
me: i know i know i know i will do well de.
mum: you better then.. if you score well, what you do i also wun care.....
me: yeah i know. ok i will not fail i will do well k?
dad: *laughs madly at our conver* yea you better not fail and maintain it there. otherwise you know wad will happen {in a sudden serious tone which made my bro laugh}
me: orh. haiyo i will de lar.
so yes. uber stress.
and i never ever told them that i don't understand anything on wad is taught in school for sciences and math.
oh wells..
by telling them i guess i will get shot.
D: cause the sudden change in level of understanding between lower sec and upper sec i guess and hope i can maintain whatever marks i had in the past.
failure is a definite no-no. =x
so i shall just try and understand all that i can :D
haishhhh..
intense life for sec 3!
>( ok wait. there isn't even any life for me ok? -.-
ok need go chiong physics ws!!
how amazing need hand in homework though it's obs tmr..
good job!
need pack bag later too >< worst part..
oh shucks..
i didn't go take a look on where my watch is supposed to report.
omfg. bleh nvm i shall go ask around haha
so spastic.
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*i never knew without you,
i would feel so small.
so small until i don't even feel myself.
so small that i need you.
argh whatever >(